Bored.

Hi people...
hi world,
if there is any.....
I'm feeling bored,
feeling empty.
Nothing's happening.
Is anything happening for you?
Happening.
Nothing.
Everything.
Is Nothing.
What?

Confused? I know I am. Okay, in a nutshell, life for me these few days are lacklustre. A total grey sky. Nothing's wrong and nothing's right. Kapeesh? Bleh...Well, I'm feeling really poetic now. Can I tell ya how I feel through these stretch of poems? Well, they aren't exactly.......but I guess there's no other name for them. Okay? Kay? Kay? Kay? Kay Kay Kay? Kay.....

Time passes,

like falling leaves.

Slow, unrushed, lazy.

What's left of me,

isn't what I want to be.

It's like,Making coffee with tea leaves.

It's just wrong.Too wrong.

Not just that.It's ugly.

The world ain't responding,

There's no replying,

Where's the light?

It's as if I'm in a cell.

A prison cell.

No place to go,

no place to see,

no place to look forward to.

There's just a confined space,

A miserable corner I can squat in.

There's nothing.

Absolute Darkness.

Absolute Void.

What's happening?

It's like there's nothing left.

All there's left is the world's routine,

unchanging,

forever the same,

where you see the same people,

hate the same people,

like the same people,

work with the same people,

talking about the same things,

arranging the same things,

organizing the same things,

doing the same things.

Where is the love?

It's at the other side of the phone.

But it's not ringing.

Will it ever?

Perhaps not.

Perhaps the phone is just there.

A mere decoration.

Just to fill in the routine.

The cycle.

The recycle.

The tricycle.

It's just there.

Nothing more.

Nothing less.

Does it sound pessimistic enough? I guessed as much...Well, I donno. I suddenly felt like blurting out a disatisfaction I had for the world. School, work, and shit like that. It's plain crappy. And what's more? the weather's crappy too. What's more? Social life is crappy too. What else? Oh yeah, games are crappy too. Gah, everything's crappy. I feel zombie. GAHHHHHH......GURRGGHHHHH!!! I want BRAINS!!!

*ehem*ehem*

I'm sorry. Hm, so, to further my attempts to express my boreness, here are the lyrics to one of my fav songs.....yeah, you guessed it...[or maybe not] it's 'Bored' by Tanya Chua.

Tanya Chua - Bored.

Faking a smile, I was talking to you
Did you know I was tired of feeling the blue
So I thought of the sun
And I thought of the rain
Thought of the weather
what it's doing today
If it's fine, fine, fine.

Making a scene for the people to see
Did you know you were boring the hell out of me
So I thought of the sun
And I thought of the rain
Thought of the weather what it's doing today
Will it shine shine shine

* I wanna sit around waiting for nothing
I wanna walk around feeling down
I wanna get that silly high on cigarettes
I wanna spin about round and round!

Du du du du du
High, high , high~
Du du du du du
round and round (repeat*)
Du du du du du(till end) .


Sounds weird? Yeah. I know. But who cares? Nobody's gonna read this anyways.....Till my very next post... ):P

Joe>>>>>>>>>>Dead Bored.

Sleepless [Part III]

Haloo~ I'm back! Well, almost anyway. But as you can see, my title suggests that I am going to write the continuation of my fic! Well, let's get the show on the road!

~Sleepless~Part III~

Tren and Marie were talking in the study and as they were saying......

"What?? You knew my Father???"

"Yes. Indeed."

Marie grew so excited, her eyes glowed.

"How was he? Was he handsome? Was he virtous? Was he the hero everyone looked up at? Was he??"

"Dear Marie. He was all that. No, he was more than that."

"Hah! My dad was that great!"

"Yes he was. He was one of the greatest men I've ever encountered."

Then Marie remembered something....her father was dead. She is an orphan.

"[Sad tone] Oh yeah.....he's dead ain't he? How did he die?"

"Erm....."

"Come on, tell me."

"He......"

"What's wrong?"

"No, nothing."

"Then tell me how my father died! Did he die an honorable death?"

"Marie......I don't know how to tell you this. But please, take a seat before I continue."

"Alright....[sits on chair] There. Tell me now."

"Marie, [long pause] your father........"

"Well?"

"He isn't dead."

"[!!!!] What do you mean he isn't dead??"

"He's not. He's still alive."

"What?? Wait, I don't get this. My father is supposed to be dead! I'm an orphan and he died when I was 2. I didn't even have a chance to see him! I visit his grave every single year!"

"That's all a set up, Marie."

"What.......[disbelief] This is not happening.....Hahah, you must be joking right?.........No? Hah, Hahahahhaahhahaahah. hahah. hahah. hah.........He's not dead...."

"Marie, he did this for your own good. He didn't want you to suffer the path he has walked."

"[angry] What's more suffering than to live on your own??! I was threw OUT on the streets when I was still a child! I had to search for scraps of food in alleys just to survive! I never had a home....I had to steal to make a living.....No one cared for me! I was a freaking orphan!! How could he do this to me??!!"

"Marie, calm down, listen to me."

"NO!"

"Please, listen to the whole story."

"[starts to cry] How am I supposed to listen to HIS story after all these years of pain??!"

"MARIE! PLEASE!"

Tren held Marie by the shoulders and stopped her from rampaging with the furniture. Marie was heartbroken. She never thought her father would've left her alone when he could've be there for her. She broke down. She fell on to Tren's arms and cried.

"Marie....it's not what it seems....your father is not the man you think he is. The reason he left you alone was a noble one."

"[sobbing] What was it........."

"He was a ------------"

"Wha?!"

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After several days,

Back in the coroner's office....

His secretary had just brought him files of information regarding the man who took the girl away...

"Sir, here are the things you asked for. Inspector Razgrin just checked these in. He said he already found out who took the girl."

"[smiles] Perfect. You may go."

"Yes sir."

The coroner then checked the files.....

"Hmm? I see...........[grins] Hahahahah.......

Another ALMITHY.

Should've guessed. These pathetic lunatics just won't stop, will they? It even continues on with generation! Hahahaha, amusing. And what's this? The girl........Marie Olkengard.....Hahahahah!

Another OLKENGARD!

Oh dear, this keeps getting better! Almithy and Olkengard, the infamous leaders of Ze Resistance De Alkengard. The two have been taken care of and now their children is coming after me?? HAHAH. This will be truly, amazingly amusing. Speaking of which, the bastards could've thrown me over if it wasn't because dear Olkengard was found out by Raz that HE was actually a mole. Ah, he was such a pretender. He almost got me fooled! Heh, dear Olkengard. He must be suffering by now. Hahahahahh."

Then there was a knock on the door. It was Inspector Razgrin. Razgrin had this face that makes him look expressionless. He's completely ruthless and has no feelings whatsoever to violaters of the law. He has served the Coroner for a good long time now.

"Yes, come in."

"Sir, you called for me?"

"Yes, Razgrin.....You did a good job. I'm sure you already know that the two criminals are the children of our dear 'friends' back then?"

"Yes sir."

"Can I trust you to do another job regarding these insects?"

"Yes sir."

"Good. Then I want you to bring them to me. Dead or alive."

"Yes sir."

"I believe you will be able to do it Raz? I'll be waiting for your results soon."

"Yes sir."

"Then you may start on your case."

"Yes sir."

Razgrin saluted the Coroner and exited the room.

"Hmph, this will be the end of the Resistance. We'll see what the rebels will be able to do about it. Their end is inevitable."

He stared into the full moon outside his window and grinned with pleasure, knowing all this would end soon enough.

~End of Part 3~

Aiyoh, Mister bad guy is gonna eliminate the main girl and boy liao!! how? the boy boy and girl girl can defend themselves against the scary Raz guy meh? Well, read on to find out!

Sigh, this was lousy. I hated it. Lol. Done it in a rather rushy manner. Forgive me people....Well, it's late....It's 12.08 now actually. So, gotta go sleep! See ya. Till the next post,

Joe>>>>>>>>Restoration=90%

Lovey Dovey Kind Of Thing.

Well, I'm back. Not in black. But back from the kelliti-klacks. What's that? Hell if I know. XD I just wanted to make it rhyme. Well, actually, I'm bloggin again coz this two seniors of mine were spamming my taggie about how I should stop killing Heartless and Nobodies and come back in the net to blog about crap. Heh. I was joking about the senior spamming thing. Don't angry ya.....=P

Haih, but actually, today I'm darn bored, tired, dead, and ungreat. Just feel like sleeeping only. But heck, I just gotta come online? For what I ask you? Then I ter-read my taggie pulak. Now I feel bad and just thinks that I should do my part to the community and.....blog. Wha-? yeah. Blog. Part of community. That will be when the sky falls, angels die and satan takes over Earth. Bleh. Well, since I'm so 'tired'. I'm gonna just write poems. Coz I keep thinking about her nowadays and I felt it's just right to dedicate this stretch of poems to her. Whaddaya think? Who cares? =P It's MY blog. Nolah, nolah. XD You people play a big part in keeping this little slice of hyperspace information in the internet alive. So, to the one in my mind, hope you see this one way or another. <3

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What am I thinking of?

You.

Who am I thinking of?

You.

What makes me wanna smile?

You.

What makes me wanna fly and reach the sky?

Your smile,

Your eyes,

Your voice,

Your incredibly one of a kind,

Heart.

Was there a time when I ever stopped thinking of you?

Was there a time when I ever stopped caring for you?

Was there ever a time I stopped loving you?

No.

Just like the stars in the sky,

the way birds fly,

till the day I die,

My love for you will never change,

No matter how the rain falls,

how the sea roars,

and how duty calls,

You will always be near my heart,

as you'll always be,

ultimately,

inevitably,

My forever love.

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Yay, I've just done my part for the community! XD Ah, the blues creep over me like how water trickles down a stream from a mountain. [?] What was that? Heh. I'm getting weird. Oh well, what's done is done. =D Sorry if you think this post was mo liu. But I really feel her. It's very real. <3

Well, till the next real post,

Joe>>>>>>>Restoration=78%

Enlightenment and Blackout.

Well, this is a two in one post actually. One is my usual posting, and another, my post of leave. I'll be leaving my blog a little idle for a while. Why? Got lah.....read on. But for now, post number 1.

Enlightenment.

What's with enlightenment? Well, I got some today. It's Cheng Beng remember? Heh. Well, so I went back to my hometown which is in Pahang. This is an annual event, where we go visit the graves of my great grandpa and grandmas [yeah, mulitple.]. So, it's very important, coz it shows how erm, ''taat' you are to the family. So, me, being the good boy, went lah, with my whole family and everything. We woke up really early, which was 6.40 a.m. It's considered hell because it's a Sunday. SUNDAY!! Well, nevermind, we must respect our greats, so, no complain, just go.

It was actually eerie that morning, it was freeezing cold. And I mean it. When we reached that hill of graves, it was foggy too. So, can't really see anything. But, luckily, there was already crowds there, so, seems more human. lol. Well, so we began climbing to one grave, then another, then another. Each grave takes considerable amounts of work cuz there might be weeds all over it, mud, and all kinds of weathering. We have to clean the grave. Yeah. Clean it. And after that, we'll have to do the offering of food, wine, then the joss sticks pulak, then the burning of the hell notes, then more and more things. We had to do that for all three graves. Yeaps, it's that much work. But we believe that it brings prosperity and security to the family. You know, the usual superstitous stuff. But this is very believable. Heheh.

So, what enlightenment did I gain from this journey? Well, half way climbing up the hills, I remembered what I told people about my view of god. I told them that, I don't have a particular god. My god, is a light in the sky. And I pray to that light during my sad and happy times. I was so caught up in this light theory that I forgot, as quite a free thinker, I don't have a real god. That's when I realised, my 'god' is my ancestors. They're the ones looking after me, they're the ones who grants my wishes. They're the ones I have really been praying to. This explains all my beliefs. I don't believe in god, I believe in afterlife. I believe that my ancestors are there, watching over us, giving us what we need. Hope, prosperity, luck. Hah. Yeah. I'm praying to someone who was once human too. So, I'm not too superstitous as I thought. Well, I particularly pray to my great grand dad. He's really someone I respect so much. As my father has. So, in a nutshell, My God=My Ancestors. They've taken care of me in a way, somehow, and they've got me outta some tight spots too. =) sounding crazy? I know. Lol. Well, that's my enlightenment. Family is divine.

Blackout.

Hah, Blackout. What? Nah, I'm not talking about a power outage. This blackout blandly means my absence. I'll be off the net for a time now. I won't be actively on, and my blog would be kinda idle. So, sorry to those who's actually reading my blog. So, what is the reason for my leave? It's a stupid reason:-

Kingdom Hearts II

Silly enough? But true. I'm really involved in this game right now, and I'm not stopping anytime soon. It's the best game ever. I've been waiting for it at least 2 years now. Since it's now here, I'm not letting it go so fast. It's my priority now. =D So, people, forgive me for this stupid reason. But I'm a gamer geek at heart. Always will be. Call me if there's anything yeah? Till the next post [which will be really long],

Joe>>>>>"No Life" Mode On.