A Thought.

Hey, people. You know, nice day. The weather's nice, everyone's nice, it's fun. I went to Sungei Wang, saw pretty girls, picked up a few things and one of them is Jay Chou's kinda-old-but-new-to-me EP. I got it at a steal of RM 30, that's the sole reason I got it at first. And I kinda liked Huo Yuan Chia, so, why not? It's the DVD version by the way. =) Well, I kinda took at the MVs right after I got home. And guess what, some of the MVs really was good. And especially the love ones, it really kinda stimulated my heart. It made me feel. Heh. So emo. And well, half way through, I got a thought about a story. A love story. It's kind of a mix of my feelings and also half the MVs I saw. It's about a couple, and I even got the plot out in my head. Hehe. Tell you what, I didn't write it anyway, so, whatabout I write it here? Sounds fine? Great. Here goes.

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Of all the couples in the world, there is one that will be told in this story. Of all the couples who're public, this couple is not. They were the most inconspicous couple in the world. Nobody in the whole wide world knew they were together. Why? Because they made it so. Now, they knew each other since they were little, as in primary school 'little'. It wasn't love at first sight, it was built. They didn't even know each other in the first place. But, a great coincidence where they both end up in the same class, gave them a chance. Being in the same class, it's impossible to not interact with each other. So, one fine day, the girl, who I'll name Jasmine called the guy, who I'll name Jake. Jake didn't care about Jasmine, he didn't love her. Not yet. They talked. They liked talking to each other. But there was no love, yet. You see, Jasmine liked a guy, who was Jake's friend while Jake likes a girl, who was Jasmine's friend. Everytime they called each other, they would talk about helping each other out in getting that particular someone. They were glad that there was help.

Then one day, during another usual phone call from Jasmine, they talked about love. Jasmine said, she didn't really like Jake's friend. She said it was maybe just infatuation and perhaps, a little peer pressure. Jake heard that and he, at that moment, said to her that it's okay, there's plenty of guys out there anyway. And then Jake told Jasmine, that he feels that he can't capture Jasmine's friend's heart anymore. They were too far a world apart. And what's more, Jake's crush is his senior now. She was intelligent, so she joined the express class, where they advance a year ahead. Jake, being a man of honor, didn't want his girlfriend to be ahead of him. So, with pain and agony, he tried to forget her. Mind you, Jake has not developed feelings for Jasmine. So, during this period of heartbreak, Jasmine was always by Jake's side. She kept calling him and comforted him. Jake got through the period of pain with her care. Jake was grateful. There was a FRIEND he could count on. Jake never thought of love for Jasmine. That'll all change in a twist of fate.

So, now, Jake and Jasmine are both crushless, and loveless. They continued to call each other. And on a fateful day, the day of graduation from primary school, Jasmine called Jake. They both got great results. Jake was especially happy. He worked hard for it, and Jasmine talked with him about it. This is the phone call.....

"Hey Jake, how're you feeling now that you're guaranteed a place in middle school!"

"I feel great Jas, I feel like I'm at the top of the world! Woo!"

"[Giggle] I know Jake, I feel so too."

"Of course! Congrats to you too then!"

"Thank Jake. You know, I hope we get into the same class next year."

"Hmm, me too Jas, me too. I couldn't live without a friend like you eh?"

"Really?"

"Aww, of course Jas! We're FRIENDS! Of course I can't live without a friend like you!"

"Heh, oh yeah. Then you're my friend too I guess."

"Hey, thanks. Hee."

"No problems. By the way, how's life without her?"

"Oh....that....erm, I guess I'm alright."

"Do you like anyone else then? I'm sure there's another girl."

"[Jokingly] Oh, of course there is. There's you. I......kinda like you now, Jas."

"What?..........Er, really?"

"[Still Joking] Yes......I just discovered that quite a while ago. I just suddenly felt it."

"[Silence]"

At this moment, Jake thought of pranking Jasmine. Jake was always the playful one. He was just thinking of pulling another prank because frankly, he really took Jasmine as only a friend.

"So....Jas? I told you who I like, are you going to tell me yours then?"

"I....I.......hm. Tell you what, I'll give you the answer in two days Jake. Can you wait?"

"Err.....of course. No problems. I have time."

"Okay.......should we hang up now? I need time to think."

"Oh, right. Err...yeah, okay. I'll be waiting for your call then Jas."

"Okay. Er...bye Jake."

"Bye Jas."

Jake didn't do something he thought he'll do. Stop the joke. He let it go on. During those two days, he really felt guilty but eventually forgot about it. He was still a kid anyway. Then the day came. The phone rang. At this moment, his heart sank. He didn't want to know the answer. He was scared that maybe she would say it's not him she likes. He kinda wished she would say it was him now. Jake was spinning in his head. Then he breathed hard and took up the phone.

"Hello, may I speak to Jake please?"

"Err, Jas?"

"Yeah, it's me."

"So......what's up?"

"You remember what I said the day before tomorrow right?"

"Er.....yeah."

"I've thought of who I like Jake."

"Erm, who is it then?"

"[Long Silence...] You. I like you Jake."

"[chokes slightly] What? Ehehhe, really?"

"Yeah. I really do."

"[Laughs nervously]"

"How do you feel now Jake?"

"I feel happy Jas. I think I just found love."

From that stupid prank he pulled, he fell for her. He then started to realise the things she has done for him. It was alot. Then he realised, she was the one who has been with him through all the bad things and the good things, especially the heartbreak. He suddenly realised that, Jasmine have not treated him as just a friend. She loved him. That's what he thought. It was nigh time that he payed her love back. With even more love. That's what Jake thought. It was the start of a very long relationship, which will then end with uncertainty.

Jake then only has Jasmine in his heart. He started appreciating the phone calls. Each lasted at least an hour. They were happy. But the Jasmine didn't want it public. Jake understands and he complies. "Let love be between us only. No one needs to know our love. As long as we know, that is enough for me." Jake said to her. And so, together they were, spiritually, mentally, but never physically. They needed to keep it a secret. Because if it blows, it'll spell trouble for the both of them, especially their parents. So, it went on. They kept their phone calls but they never went out or held each other's hands ever. They only see it through each other's eyes. They understood each other's minds, no words needed.

Jake was very serious in this relationship, he wanted it to go on, even to marriage. He felt Jasmine was his other half that found him. He didn't want it to end. Everytime Jasmine was sick, he was worried sick, everytime Jasmine didn't call, he would pray she's okay, everytime Jasmine went for vacation, he was love sick. He just wasn't complete without her. He wrote poems for her, sang songs for her, thought about her, dreamt about her, never stopped hoping they would one day be a true couple. But he knew that day was far and he dreaded he would not be able to wait till that day. Then Jasmine called one day, it was then already at least 2 years after they binded, she wanted to say something.

"Hello, Jake?"

"Hey Jas. I've missed you."

"I know Jake, me too. But..... I need to tell you something today."

"Huh? Er....what can that be?"

"Jake, I think we can't be together anymore."

"Wha? Why??"

"I think it's not right. Er...I think I don't really like you."

"What? But! What do you mean??"

"I think I just....erm, think of you as a brother."

"Hah......haha, right....hahah, brother. Jasmine, tell me what's REALLY going on...."

"I..........don' t think i'm ready for this kind of thing."

"But....two years ago..."

"I know, it must've been a rash action."

"Right......but, but, you're just scared your parents will find out right?"

"Sort of......"

"Oh. Hey, that's okay. I....I....erm......I'll not make it so obvious kay?"

"But er.....we can't be a couple now either. It's my choice. It'll affect my studies."

"Hmm.....I see......Erm....I guess..."

"So.....don't be sad okay?"

"No wait, is there any chance left for us to be together?"

"I don't know........maybe after middle school ends?"

"What? That's like another 4 years."

"Yeah. It's a long time."

"I don't care Jas, I love you and I always will. I'll wait. For you, I'll wait."

"Huh? What? You really will?"

"Yes."

"Okay....it's up to you then."

"We'll still be friends right?"

"Yeah, of course."

"That's good. Well, I don't think I can continue this conversation anymore, Jas. Remember, I'm waiting. Tell me when you're ready to accept me again. I'll be here, always. Bye Jas. [hangs up]"

"Jake....."

Jake was heartbroken to the very edge. He didn't know what to think. But deep in his heart, he knows he'll always love her and eventhough they're not officially together, he'll still always treat her as though they were. At the other side of the phone, Jasmine was looking at the night sky, wondering about how Jake was doing, she felt half guilty but she had to say those things to Jake. She couldn't risk letting her parents knowing about this. Jake was crushed though, he just wanted to hear her voice once more......as the girl he loved.

This situation went on for another 3 years. They 'broke up' during that phone call but still remained friends till this day. In the interval of three years, there were less phone calls and everytime Jake gets one, he is elated. He just wanted things to go back to the way they were. But then lately, she hasn't been paying him mind. She was indirectly keeping away from him. She didn't answer his phone calls, and even didn't find the time to talk to him at school. He was heartbroken once more. what happened to the chance she promised him? Why wasn't she showing him any sign of affection? She was the one who started this mess and she is now running away from it. He felt angry but he still feels love for her. His mind is killing him with thoughts. He couldn't take it anymore. Does she even have feelings for me anymore? Does she even remember her promise? He waited for 3 years already. It was almost 4. The time he had to wait was too much.

During that time, he restrained himself from involving himself in another relationship. He always kept in mind that the one he loves is Jasmine and she is waiting for him at the end of the road. He pulled through all those years with this plain reason. So, one day, when he couldn't wait anymore, his soul cried for love. He was deprived of it these many years. He couldn't live on like this anymore. After all these years of telling himself that she still loves him, today, he doubts that fact. He decides to find the answer himself. He decides to end this once and for all. He would find her, and ask her. He put aside his fears of rejection and decided strongly that he will indeed ask her.......if she still loves him.

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So, get the story? Let me tell you what's going on so far, in case you don't get what the hell's going on. You see, since primary school, let's take, standard 6. The fateful phone call happens. He tells her he likes him and they go on. 2 years later, during form 2? yeah, she tells him the cold hard truth. He still believes that there was love between them and that she still like him as he still likes her. But towards the end of the 5th year, he couldn't take it anymore. The love he thought he had might actually be gone 3 years ago. Maybe she already forgot about him 3 years ago but really just, continued to be friends. Nothing more. The thoughts of these things scared Jake. So he decided to end the fear once and for all, and prepares to take whatever truth that comes at him when he asks Jasmine whether she still loves him.

The part where he asks her, I have to post in the next one. This post is getting to long and it's lagging all over. Sorry. Heheh. So, next post people!

Joe>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>To Be Continued.