Feel My Soul.

What a title to put. Love that quote....or more like song title. Thanks YUI.

These few days, haven't been feeling quite myself. I've been.....a little empty, angsty, bitchy, though happy at times. I'm confused. My feelings are in a blender as far as I can tell. I cannot feel and unfeel.....both at the same time. It's out of control. I don't feel like crying, yet I do not want to laugh either.

Studies are what I should be doing. I tell myself I'll manage, but it's barely working. I'm an empty vessel, floating on what's left of myself. I cannot let this go on. Someone, fill me in with hope. Where is that someone when I desperately need the comfort. The world seems to be in it's dark cycle now, everything's going wrong. Not only in my perspective, but others too. And the weather's gone cold.....if it means anything.

To regain myself, I've been sleeping earlier than usual. I don't know if it's a form of escape, but it seems that way. I wake up the next morning, feeling the same way. Dark rings are starting to say hello but thankfully it seems more suppressed now. Talk about beauty sleep. Heh.

Guitar? Doesn't work much these days. Don't like the fact that I'm stopping class. I like being there. Learning how to manipulate your fingers around the strings, emitting melodies that tells my stories. Watashi no Uta. Hmm. Stress accumulates as I struggle to give a good impression as lead guitarist for the first time. Damn.

Changed my specs, their now 100, 125 in power compared to last year's 25, 50. I'm such a bum. Now I have trouble seeing without them. Might explain abit of my dizziness and blurness these few days. Geh.

Flashbacks. Of Me, Myself and My Life. It's cute. I need more of those nice memories to build nice places in my mind.

I need someone to hold.

P/S: My Dad for 'Best Dad Ever' title. He brought back HP7 from work today. It's free, so says him. It came with the mug too. Courtesy of MPH. Alright~

Joe>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I'm Cold. Hold Me. Please.

Fuiyo~!

Last Saturday, was alot of things. So many, that it kinda hurts and is cool at the same freaking time. Lol. Let's see, last Saturday was:-

a)Interact's 12th Installation.
b)My performance for the event mentioned in (a).
c)A bloody happy day as I enjoyed (b).
d)The day I was appointed lead guitarist for my brother's band.
e)The day the whole band mentioned in (e) had a sleepover and it was hella fun.

and

f)The day I broke up with my girlfriend. [I'm so ass-y for announcing it here.] But please don't mind me.

I'm not happy, yet I'm relieved that it's over. It's very complicated. Shiuh~

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By the way, here's something from today's English lesson with Pn. Chong.

WARNING: [SS Session Up Ahead]

Here's how the bit at the end of the class went. [It's what's important XD]


Pn.Chong: ....And so, in life, we have to do things with all our effort and energy. We cannot do it halve baked. [I forgot what she said after that but here's that part after that] And, I have to confess, I have to confess that JOE is that kind of person. He does things with utmost care and all the particularities involved. [And she went on about how good I am *cough*cough* ^.^][Then tiba-tiba, she said] He's a good candidate to marry. [O.O!!][The bell rings, and on her way out,] If I had a younger daughter, I would've elect him to be my son-in-law. [^.^"""""][And then I ucap-ed her and she went out of the class].

For the rest of the day, I was dubbed "Son In Law of Pn. Chong" and she was my Mother in Law. LOL~! Life.

Joe>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Hopes He Don't Dream Of Sara Lau.