Fear.

What does this word mean to you? Ever wondered if the fear you feel is extreme enough? It's very subjective. But yes, whatever you feel, it all has a similiar characteristic, which is, fear strikes you in your mind and soul, shivering it from head to toe. You are scared stiff. Speechless. Cold sweat. Your eyes water.

I had a feeling like that......yesterday. Ehem. It was indeed fear at it's very peak. But what was fear? Fear for me wasn't heights, spiders or cockroaches. My biggest fear I think, is 'not being good enough' and 'dissapointing one other'. That's exactly what I did and felt yesterday. It's crazy. Stemed from a small little mistake. One week later, it caused havoc. The effects of my carelessness could've caused a whole lot of catastrophes in the area of money, people and business. And not to me either. It means that I'm causing all this trouble on another person because of MY mistake.

That is fear to me. To cause trouble for someone I respect and hold responsibility to. I so hate to dissapoint people. It just strikes me in the back of the head and all I can say to myself when that happens is, "You bloody idiot." I don't care who I dissapoint. It's just the fact that I failed to carry out my duty well. I cannot find myself to blame others.

Strange? Well, I'm strange like that. Lol. Anyways, hope all you people doing college isn't having anything to fear. Safety and peace to you.

Joe>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Brrr.